Have you ever moticed that the things you seem to want or need the most tend to fall through the cracks at crucial times? It seems to be a consequence of springtime for me - the emotional, flaky, hormone ridden air is torturing me and my fair brethren around the world. I feel as though my feet are tied to a rope hanging from the ceiling and I'm just being batted around - swinging back and forth with a constant feeling of lightheadedness.

God I hate springtime.

Singergirl will be back in a few days, she called this afternoon to say she missed me. This all timed together with the fact that ChI will be back in a matter of days. My life is getting more criscrossed and interesting as ever. Now, more than any point in the past, I am a little glad I have an audience to share this with. At least there's some sort of verification that these things are actually happening and I'm not just fabricating them. Sometimes I think my imagination is so active it produces conflicts for me in real life as if to say, "Here ya go Dean! Have fun with this one!"

ChI's return will be a little weird for me solely based on that fact that I'm not sure how our friendship will be. Can it be normal again? Is she returning because she wants me back? How will Singergirl react? ChI has traditionally hated any other woman I've dated. *shrug*

Dean