ChI called. She's thinking of moving back here, New York is not quite working out how she'd planned and the semester is almost over. Could this confuse me any more? [laugh] I mean, she and I had a fantastic (albeit a little neurotic) relationship and she decides to move. Fine. I struggle a bit and move on, developing a very serious and intense relationship with Singergirl. Now ChI wants to come back? *shaking my head* I don't know what she expects here, I fully intend on being her friend. I don't know what more she wants and I don't know how much more I can give her.

The problem with ChI is that I am crazy about her. I still am, and I'd be lieing if I said otherwise. She knows I'm still crazy about her, but it's in a different way than it was before. It has nothing to do with singergirl, though she insists that it does. I don't know if it's some sort of possession or competition thing, I don't claim to understand women.

Work at the subrocket is exhausting me even though I have been working earlier hours. Maybe it's that Singergirl hasn't been around and all that sexual frustration is building up in my joints and in a tiny point at the back of my neck.

Dean